Strung Out

[fox69]

"Never Good Enough"

"Never Good Enough"


She's a big girl and she knows just what she wants
She's gonna get her shit together and get out of Hollywood
Daddy's little angel won't be coming home tonight.
When you're nowhere to be found I'll know you've giving up the fight.

She can't hold her own, she says she's gotta run away from here
The city's gotten the best of her just one too many times.
When everything's been said and done and the dust has finally cleared
I'll be your fool just one more time I'll be waiting by the phone.

[Chorus:]
Cause I don't know
And I don't care
I'll do anything you want
Never good enough for you.

Well she don't need nobody anyway.
That's cause no one understands her, she's somewhere in outer space
Knock knocking at my head again, this time you won't get in
She's in orbit now and I'm underground just waiting by the phone

[Chorus]

Everything she wants
is everything she sees
There's a riddle in her eyes
sometimes I try to figure it out.

She's got a mountain of toys
reaching to the sky
doesn't keep her high
Well the needle and the spoon
the bottle and the pills
ain't gonna make you feel alright

[Chorus]

 

[fox69]

"Never Speak Again"

"Never Speak Again"


This is the alter of my downfall
a symbol of this glorious demise
Well I'm in flames and getting deeper
all contact lost is no surprise
I'm sitting here alone
the silence heavier than me tonight
A lost soul found and sold again
A broken stride reborn again
Here among these gilded pages
Now its sanctuaries one last stand

To never have to speak again
To never say your name again
To never tell another lie
to live in the honesty of the eyes

Create your own defence
and keep a secret tight
Tonight there will be no sound
In golden silence we'll be found

To never have to say goodbye
when it hurts too much to just get by
honesty will be a glace away

We're not far, don't say anything

When all the words of the poets lie meaningless
When all the trivial delusions
all lose their place in the arms of those who wonder why
nothing really matters

Tonight all be no sound
in silence we'll be found
a little less exaggerated
To never say goodbye
To never tell a lie
To never come across so jaded

To never curse your name again
To never take the blame again
To never get the last word everytime we've got nothin' good to say

 

[fox69]

"Night Of The Necro"

"Night Of The Necro"


No time, coming down, burning up the sky
The hero was waiting and all hope had been lost
There came a shape of twisted metal, proclaiming astral-murder
Pushing a never ending darker age

They came and took you away, now half the battle has been lost
I drove around up and down this burned out town

It started in the graveyards rectifying what was left
Of who recently deceased, it gives them life
This plague condemned the cities, killing armies with him where they stood
Infection and destruction, no one had a chance

They came and took you away, this subliminal hymn has been sent
He walks all the way, "So this is hell?" he asks
Postmortematic shock, troops marching up and down, reality

Electro-magnetic pulse of radiating corpses
Started emanating, knee-jerk resistance
Moving through defenses, but severed at the base
In the ashes of the cities we'll build another race

To grow, to bleed, this blood's a flood
To rise and take what belongs to us
To grow, to defeat, to burn
To finally crush and take away

They came and took you away, now half the battle has been lost

 

[fox69]

"No Apologies"

"No Apologies"


I wonder if I left this place today
If something went wrong and I couldn't be around to say
All the things I kept from you till you got old enough
Would you hold the world against me or would you understand
So show me something that I used to know
In another life before I grew to where I had to let it go
Now we'll never walk alone

Through fields of time we tow the line
Through all the hurt and damage we find
And every day's another shot to show me everything I've got
We're reckless with no apologies

Would you listen to me and not mistakes that I've made
As I watch this world slowly chip away
That innocence behind your eyes
The beauty in your heart
I look you in the eye to remember all that I forgot

Now every day's a little more than just surviving
As the person that you grow to be is stronger than the best of me
And the possibility and all the space between you and me

Through fields of time we tow the line
Through all the hurt and damage we find
Will it come to be that you're the brightest part of me
We're reckless till the end with no apologies

Now every day's another chance
To find a part of you in me to realize the best in me
Through fields of time we tow the line
Through all the hurt and damage we find
And every day's another shot to show me everything I've got
We're reckless till the end with no apologies

Would you listen to me and not mistakes I've made
As I watch this world slowly slip away

 

[fox69]

"No Voice Of Mine"

"No Voice Of Mine"


the wind is shifting, somethings different in the air.
I see it in the form of choices every where
and I've been asleep a lifetime just to wake in time to find...
the voice that has been speaking for me is no voice of mine!
NOW YOU'VE JUST BEEN SPOKEN FOR!
NOW YOU'VE JUST BEEN SOLD!
my eyes fixated on the life I left behind,
a puppet dreams of being human
every time that a string gets pulled before you know, your dancin' to the lie
of someone elses vision of the perfect waisted life...

Its in the way we never seem to get it right!
a systematic form of bowin down and under,
and all we know is what we are, without the faith in WHO WE ARE
soo desperate...

Somethin' here has gotta give and my instincts fill me with this dread,
that I've become what I'm tryin' to kill, that my appetite is my free will...
THERE IS NO RIGHT, THERE IS NO WRONG, THERE IS ONLY THAT IS FOREVER GONE!

 

[fox69]

"Novacain"

"Novacain"


There's something I can't figure out
There's something that I can't let go
It's here it's real and it's staring me in the eye
It's all I see now
Growing into something new
Becoming what I always knew
Would change me if I let it go
would turn on me if I let it show now
If I let it show
And you always got the best of me
While bringing out the worst of me
I found myself again and I didn't like this thing that I've become now
So I gotta do this right now
Cause tomorrow I ain't looking back
This is my last chance to come clean and make it right
And show you what I know
Sinking ever further
Concrete shoes keep me around
It's getting way to late to change tonight
Shudder to think I may be wrong
It's easy to lose when you're the king of loss and everything slips by
Taken a chance making a change
For better or worse
I can't let go
and I know what I want
Is what we think of ourselves inside
The same as what we really are
Is what you see in me
really what i wanna be?
Is this all for me
Is this all for you?
Is this all we see in ourselves?

 

[fox69]

"Novella"

"Novella"


My dreams are cold and crawl with regret
Black and white, there's still us shouting out
We might not make it through

This chapter covers time without you
You are a ghost within these pages I call home
That's nothing new

Cause I'm inclined to say I don't mind
That you still come around this place
Survive me every time

Every scar and all the pain that we find in between
All the words are like razorblades
Well it all seemed far, the distance we are
Another world, another time
Like another life we left behind

It's not enough to say I know you
It's like you have all your secrets
I don't know and never will
Like a riddleated pages, nothing new
A silent gesture, screaming out my name
You know this one's for you

Cause I'm inclined to say I don't mind
That you still keep me guessing
Every chapter, every time

Every scar and all the pain that we find in between
All the words are like razorblades
Well it all seemed far, the distance we are
Another world, another time
Like another life we left behind

Well I got my wings and all my good luck things
Pressed between a single page in melodrama
Well this binding's not at all what it used to be
Can't hold this page any longer
Any longer

This story I too shall breathe
The chapters four, five, and three
We done it all with every start
The rest is human, dark and bleak
With fiction, fodder, and disbelief
And somehow we always make it through

 

[fox69]

"Nowheresville"

"Nowheresville"


Now I already know which way the wind blows
By the sound of machine hearts blotting the horizon
And I no longer feel the weight of consequence
My actions prove futile
My deliverance a waste of wine
I feel like I've been hypnotized a lifetime waiting to awake
And offer something more
One screen showed me to the sea
The other flashed the drums of war
And everybody sang

I no longer wanna see what you're showing me
It doesn't mean a thing at all
It doesn't change the way I feel
It's all white noise expensive toys
Gimme mine or I'm taking yours
It's you and I along the great divide

We're never gonna see eye to eye
When the distance is measured in a lie
I already know without light there is no shadows
I'd leave it all behind
I'd walk into the setting sun
Just to burn away
The illusion that I'm living free

One screen showed the worst of me
The other tried to sell me more
Now I got all I can take
We've been to hell and back
We've seen the great divide and wanted more
Now it's coming around again

I no longer wanna see what you're showing me
It doesn't mean a thing at all
It doesn't change the way I feel
It's all white noise expensive toys
Gimme mine or I'm taking yours

And if you saw me now
Would you recognize yourself
We're all going somewhere
We're all going to Nowheresville

It's all white noise expensive toys
Gimme mine or I'm taking yours
I no longer wanna see what you're showing me
It doesn't mean a thing at all
It doesn't bother me at all
I no longer want to feel what you're too afraid to reveal
And all the signs that guide my way
Left me stranded on my way to Nowheresville
Stranded on my way to Nowheresville
It's all white noise expensive toys
Gimme mine or I'm taking yours
Stranded on my way to Nowheresville

 

[fox69]

"Orchid"

"Orchid"


I am the future
I am metaphor for war
I take my medicine as I'm praying on all fours
We sit in fields of rust, Corinthian and time
I'm synthesis in motion, I am freedom and decline

Raise me to shine like an orchid from the cracks
Wash me aside when the levees finally break
In opposition we are never free
When our cause becomes our slavery

The poet and the warrior
The future or the way we were
Stand down rise up, we all know?
The secret to the life we chose
So we are

I am law to save me from who I am
I am love spent then reborn again
We are orchid torn away
All is forgiven when we pray

The poet and the warrior
The future or the way we were
Stand down rise up, we all know?
The secret to the life we chose

Stand down? Rise up? We all know
Stand down? Rise up? We all know

 

[fox69]

"Paperwalls"

"Paperwalls"


A look of discontentment fills your hazel eyes
As I ask for the millionth time what's going on
You seem to be confused about just where you stand with me tonight
As we tear apart all that wasn't lost to another fight

And so we turn against each other once again
You run and I go hide
Talking to myself again about all the things I should've said
And I wait for you

I sit and wait for you

I wanna know where this is going and do we
Still have a chance to save what we haven't lost again?
I made a promise to myself not to let this go
But now I need to see this through to burn these paper walls of doubt

And so we turn against each other once again
You run and I go hide
Talking to myself again about all the things I should've said
And I wait for you

I sit and wait for you

My fucked-up head is spinning 'round and all my thoughts just keep me down
Here on your doorstep, I'm drunk again
I know you're sick of all my shit and I know you want an end of this
So tell me right now, where do you stand?

I know you're tired of this waiting game and I know you're tired of all my ways
I know you're tired of it all; just tell me now

I wanna know where this is going and do we
Still have a chance to save what we haven't lost inside?
All these paperwalls we build and all the ashes that have spilled
Get in the way, get in the way

And so we turn against each other once again
You run and I go hide
Talking to myself again about all the things I should've said
And I wait for you

I sit and wait for you