Sleeping At Last

fox69 · 12.01.2017

"Touch"

"Touch"

When will I feel this
As vivid as it truly is,
Fall in love in a single touch,
And fall apart when it hurts too much?

Can we skip past near-death clichés
Where my heart restarts, as my life replays?
All I want is to flip a switch
Before something breaks that cannot be fixed.

I know, I know - the sirens sound
Just before the walls come down.
Pain is a well-intentioned weatherman
Predicting God as best he can,
But God I want to feel again.

Rain or shine, I don’t feel a thing,
Just some information upon my skin.
I miss the subtle aches when the weather changed,
The barometric pressure we always blamed.

All I want is to flip a switch
Before something breaks that cannot be fixed.

Invisible machinery,
These moving parts inside of me
Well, they’ve been shutting down for quite some time,
Leaving only rust behind.

Well I know, I know - the sirens sound
Just before the walls come down.
Pain is a well-intentioned weatherman
Predicting God as best he can,
But God I want to feel again,
Oh God I want to feel again.

Down my arms, a thousand satellites
Suddenly discover signs of life.

fox69 · 12.01.2017

"Trees (Hallway Of Leaves)"

"Trees (Hallway Of Leaves)"

It's just beyond those trees...
The place I've been dreaming of.
Will you follow me?

Trust me, I know where I'm going.

It's somewhere here within the leaves...
There must be some mistake...

Trust me, I know where I'm going

We'll cut a path out for us
Through the green seas,
We'll make hallways of leaves.

I know it seems it was just some crazy dream
And I know my eyes were closed
But this dream feels more real to me
Than life itself.

My ear is pressed upon this wall.
For behind it is that place.

The door is locked...
I'll do whatever it takes

(you have to) Trust me, I know where I'm going.

Will you follow me?
Will you follow me, still?

In the moments that I feel
We're closer than ever before
The world drops out from under our feet.
But I believe the darkest of fights
Prove we're almost there.

There is always something there
to take our hearts like thieves
There is always something there
to take our hearts (But nothing matters.)
There is always something there to take

When we arrive
We will hear
Voices sing.

Nothing matters.
Nothing matters anymore
Nothing matters anymore, anymore, anymore.

It's beginning to get dark.
But don't worry,
I know where we are,
I know where we are.
Will you follow me, still?

fox69 · 12.01.2017

"Turning Page"

"Turning Page"

I’ve waited a hundred years
But I’d wait a million more for you
Nothing prepared me for
What the privilege of being yours would do

If I had only felt the warmth within your touch
If I had only seen how you smile when you blush
Or how you curl your lip when you concentrate enough
Well I would have known
What I was living for all along
What I’ve been living for

Your love is my turning page
Where only the sweetest words remain
Every kiss is a cursive line
Every touch is a redefining phrase

I surrender who I’ve been for who you are
For nothing makes me stronger than your fragile heart
If I had only felt how it feels to be yours
Well I would have known
What I’ve been living for all along
What I’ve been living for

Though we’re tethered to the story we must tell
When I saw you, well I knew we’d tell it well
With a whisper we will tame the vicious seas
Like a feather bringing kingdoms to their knees

fox69 · 12.01.2017

"Umbrellas"

"Umbrellas"

I'll make you mine.
I'll make you mine if you would have me.
With a silver ring that will hug you tight,
Our life begins.
Our life begins with this.

I'll prove my love.
I'll prove my love if you would let me.
Over and over and over again.

We'll bring a child.
We'll bring a child into this world
We'll say the one thing
Everyone should hear:

You were meant for amazing things.

Give me your hand.
Give me your hand, it's time.
It's time to show new eyes their home.

Oh, When fences divide,
Fences divide our land,
I would catch bullets with my bare hands.

'Cause you were meant for,
you were meant for,
you were meant for amazing things.

fox69 · 12.01.2017

"Uneven Odds"

"Uneven Odds"

I once knew your father well
He fought tears as he spoke of your mother's health
I guess a part of him just couldn’t return
Forgiveness is a lesson he cursed you to learn

As your guardian I was instructed well
To make sense of God’s love in these fires of hell
No I don’t expect you to understand
Just to live what little life your broken heart can

Maybe your light is a seed
And the darkness the dirt
In spite of the uneven odds
Beauty lifts from the earth
From the earth
From the earth

As the years move on these questions take shape
Are you getting stronger or is time shifting weight?
No one expects you to understand
Just to live what little life your mended heart can

You’ll always remember the moment God took her away
For the weight of the world was placed on your shoulders that day

Maybe your light is the seed
And the darkness the dirt
In spite of the uneven odds
Beauty lifts from the earth
From the earth

You’re much too young now
So I write these words down,
“Darkness exists to make light truly count.”

fox69 · 12.01.2017

"Unmade"

"Unmade"

When we were young
our words were innocent -
whiter than snow,
awkward and slow.
now when we speak,
we risk an avalanche.
but that's not enough now
to reroute our plans.

I believe that we've got it wrong, got it wrong.
we'll realize when it's said and done, said and done,
that in our words we've lost so much more
than we've ever won.

the aftermath
is cracked wood where fences stood
and the broken bones of our childhood.

in our trembling fear,
we put words inside God's mouth.
we cover our tracks
and get so proud of ourselves,
we get so proud of ourselves,
we get so proud of ourselves
when we get away.

I believe that we've got it wrong, got it wrong.
we'll realize when it's said and done, said and done,
that in our words we've lost so much more
than we've ever won.

it's in our nature to complicate,
but in the end it's the casualties
that carry all the weight.

fox69 · 12.01.2017

"Until I Saw The Sea"

"Until I Saw The Sea"

You knew my tears though I couldn't cry

I rest my fears in your hands
Day breathes
And falls across the ocean
You know my fears

The stars in the sky seem to notice your serenity
As February holds the glow in my eyes
Your promise remains unbroken
Your promise remains unbroken

I trust in you
I place these days into your hands

I am your child
I am your child
You were there to set me free

fox69 · 12.01.2017

"Venus"

"Venus"

The night sky once ruled my imagination.
Now I turn the dials with careful calculation.
After a while, I thought I’d never find you.
I convinced myself that I would never find you,
When suddenly I saw you.

At first I thought you were a constellation.
I made a map of your stars, then I had a revelation:
You’re as beautiful as endless,
You’re the universe I’m helpless in.
An astronomer at my best
When I throw away the measurements.

Like a telescope,
I will pull you so close
'til no space lies in between.

And suddenly I see you.
Suddenly I see you.

I was a billion little pieces
'til you pulled me into focus.
Astronomy in reverse,
It was me who was discovered.

(I thought I’d never find you,
When suddenly I saw you.)

Like a telescope,
I will pull you so close,
'til no space lies in between.

Then suddenly I see you.

fox69 · 12.01.2017

"Watermark"

"Watermark"

You were carved out of the sea
Watermarked by your ancestry
In a tug of war between the tide and me
What felt like loss was a victory
Cause you were swept ashore like bottles holding prayers

You were carved out of the earth
Safe and sound in your second birth
Gravity has tied your ankle to the shore
As a lighthouse tamed the endless ocean war

Against the calming light our silhouettes are changing shape
The stories you've been told have made you brave

Such inheritance was formed within the sand
Like the shells you gather in the safety of your hands
Dive in with your eyes closed
For the life you were born to claim
And the water will be paralyzed
By the courage you contain
And the flutter of your earnest heart
It will fill the silent seas
And all will be restored in your memory

fox69 · 12.01.2017

"We're Still Here"

"We're Still Here"

All of a sudden,
You changed my mind.
Pulled back the curtains
A little at a time.

You were on a frequency,
The perfect opposite of me
Though I never needed any proof
To trust the heart that beats inside of you.

Only one thing really matters:
We're still here. we're still here.
Against all odds, we're still here. still here.

There is color deep within your eyes,
A history that only you and I could write.
There is pigment in your memory,
The origins of our family tree.
Though I never needed any proof
To know the heart that beats inside of you.

Only one thing really matters:
We're still here. we're still here.

Through the static,
Through the ashes
We were brave.
Through the perils
Of endless narrow escapes,
We're still here. we're still here.