Esham

[fox69]

"I'd Rather Be Dead"

"I'd Rather Be Dead"



In order to make that trip to the future
As efficiently as possible
There's certain things in the past
You'll have to leave in the past
I'd rather be dead
Than living in a world like this
With nothing to eat
No shoes on my feet
Can't get a job 'cause my skin color
Can't get a cab 'cause I'm a brother
My back's against the wall
In fear I might fall
My last words when I die
Will be fuck yall hoes
Nobody knows me
Nobody owes me shit
So suck my dick
I'd rather be dead 'cause I'm sick
Of all this racism KKK shit
All brothers aint bad
But see you treat us like animals
So we tend to get mad
This is for the suicidalists
I'd rather be dead
Grab a nine and I might just
Cross my heart and hope to die
Pull the trigger
And kiss the whole world good bye
This is for my dead homies
Dead bodies found layin' in my pocket
But ya don't know me
You still creamin' on my old shit
But I aint said nothing new
It's just that you don't know shit
I'm still knockin' 'em out
Knockin' 'em dead
Did what I said
'Cause I'd rather be dead
I'd rather be dead
I'd rather be dead no jokin'
No use prayin'
With the preacher for money
It ain't workin'
No use gettin' me a nine to five
'Cause either way you look at it
I'm breakin' my back to be alive
It goes something like that
Then something like this
Next thing you know I get pissed
My life is up an down
How you think that sound
I'd rather be dead
I can't fuck around
Time is wastin'
Lost the rat racin'
I just found out
My dad's free basin'
Problems fall on my head like a ton of bricks
And all I wanna do is get my gun quick
Bad news
Bad signs
And everytime I wanna talk
Somebody tell me it's a bad time
Another victim of circumstance
Mislead
That's why I'd rather be dead
For those of you who had trauma in the past
(I'd rather be dead)
Experienced set backs
Love didn't work out for ya
I'd rather be dead 'cause I'm pissed off
And I'm mad at the world
I ain't got to girl or no money
Everything's sad but funny
Everybody seems to think I'm a dummy
But I'm gonna show 'em all
I won't miss none of yall
Try to figure out why I did it
You think you know it
I'm gonna hold my breath
And wish my death
And when I open my eyes
I wish that there's no more life left in my body
So I can party with the devil
'Cause I'm goin' to hell
Might aswell
Soul and body
Embedded in a wooden box
When they put me in the ground
People just couldn't stop cryin'
'Cause they heard my soul is dyin'
I'm going to hell
So you can stop tryin' to pray for me
You Should've talked to me
Now I'm gonna haunt your ass
Every night you sleep
You better heed the word
That the dead man said
'Cause one day
You'll rather be dead
There's present tense
There are problems
There are solutions
When we dwell too much on the problems
Your not spending enough time
Quality time
On the solutions
The solutions are the only thing that will delete the problems

 

[fox69]

"I'll Be Glad When You Dead"

"I'll Be Glad When You Dead"


"Yo, Nineteen ninety ninety whateva
Closed Casket yo, we still comin outta coma,
and yo, tell 'em how you feelin right now"

I'll be glad when you dead, takin two to the head
Fill the body bag, blood stains, bloody mag
I can't rest, til I put one dead in the center of your chest
N-A-T-A-S, fuck the gun control, sell my soul
Got the symptoms of insanity, I'm slippin, oh no
And my wicked, kick the wicked, some of the wicked shit I'm backin
Wit' the mack 10, motherfucka what'chyou wanna do?
Fuck yo crew, I don't give a fuck, you know what you can suck
When I buck, betta duck
Or I'ma take one, two, three, niggas down wit me
Cause I don't give a fuck punk, I'll be glad when you dead

[Chorus: x2]
I'll be glad when you dead motherfucka
I'll be glad when you dead (I'll be glad when you dead)

I wanna see you do drop to them knees, wiggle them and squeeze
Blowin your brains in the breeze
I said Kill the Fetus, motherfuckin Jesus
Niggas bitin my melody, they keep on tellin me
Now I need some therapy, psychic connection
Dead bodies give me an erection, correction
Correctional facilities, can't get with these
I gave life to the rhythm and I made it breathe
I can't believe, you believe what you believe
If you believe in me then I'll let you see
Until then when it's done an said
I'ma bust one for yo head, I'll be glad when you dead

[Chorus]

I'll be glad when you locked in the body bag, zip-locked
Got the hammer cocked from the Glock
Shot's bust, ashes to ashes, and dust to dust
See the good die young, and all die must
And I trust in no man, no clan
I never run, I never ran, how I could just kill a man
Damn, lit shots, an Rude Boy come down
In Motown, I don't fuck around
I'ma a nigga roamin understandin zero
Money is my hero
Don't blame me for H-A-T-E, towards me and my crew
We kick the voodoo, and always like fuck you

"Put him in a bag, put him in a bag,
put him in a bag, put him in a bag,
put him in a bag, put him in a bag,
put him in a bag put him in a bag!!"

[Chorus x2]

I'll be glad when you dead motherfucka
I'll be glad when you dead motherfucka (I'll be glad when you dead)
I'll be glad when you dead motherfucka
I'll be glad when you dead motherfucka (wrapped up in a body bag)
I'll be glad when you dead motherfucka
I'll be glad when you dead motherfucka

 

[fox69]

"I'm Dead"

"I'm Dead"


Who stole my soul? You tryin to kill me, how you gonna kill a dead man?
I'm already dead you can't kill me you God damn bastard!
I'm ddeaaaaaaaad

[CHORUS x4]
I know you tryin ta kill me
I'm dead, I'm dead I'm dead, I'm deeeeeaaaaaaaaad

I'm comin in but I need some therapy
I gotta stay medicated just to keep some clarity
My cranium cracked open and started smokin
Fire comes outta my mouth when words are spoken
I spit this sickness, slit ya wrist with the quickness
The wicked one with the wicked tongue
I close my eyes and see visions of niggaz bustin guns
Snatch ya tongue outcha mouth and you'll hafta hum
Come get some, be another victim
And I dog fight all night when I hear sick em
Because I'm dead (I know you tryin to kill me)
Slugs to the head, blood stains on his shirt turn red
Never thought I'd get twisted like a dred, deceased so rest in peace I said

[CHORUS]

I'm dead from a bullet from a gun
Emptied out two clips not one
Narcles raid, you best run or you'll be locked down can't see no sun
When ya dead, you don't give a fuck bout what's goin on
Whats on the radio, what a number one song?
Bitch don't blow my bust
Cause if you do, I just might hafta put a few in you
Cause you don't have a clue, you know who the fuck you talkin to?
Lil' hoe, ay yo watch me go Quasimodo
So live niggaz copy the dead like a photo
Never rap about fans named Stan like a hoe doe

[CHORUS]

Kill me, Kill me, kill me, kill me

 

[fox69]

"If I Can't Have U"

"If I Can't Have U"


[Esham: talking]
(I'm gon kill that bitch
Why you do this to me baby?
Somethin's wrong, somethin's definitely wrong
Somethin's wrong)

Early Sunday morning I woke up from my sleep
My bitch was on the creep
And shit was gettin knee deep
I looked up at the clock, it said 12:02
And ain't no tellin what I'm bout to do
I thought she knew
Animalistic nigga out the zoo
Crazy, oh it's true
Call my bitch boo
I jumped up out the bed, I saw her panties on the flo'
Got visions of a nigga fuckin my ho
At the mo-mo
I left up out the house, my mind was still in a daze
I left the street sweeper, dragged around in a rage
Paranoid, I betta calm down fo' i bust
12:30 in the mornin, thinkin who can I trust?
Cuz I know she with that nigga that I saw in my dream
And once I catch the bitch, I'ma make the ho scream
So now I walk around with the gauge in my hand
Cuz my bitch sucks the dick of some other man
And

If I can't have you.....no nigga can....and [x2]

I smell pussy all the way from up the block
As I walk
Schizophrenic, as the voices in my head start to talk, sayin
(You know yo bitch fuckin that nigga,
you know yo bitch fuckin that nigga
You know yo bitch fuckin that nigga,
YOU KNOW YO BITCH FUCKIN THAT NIGGA)
Damn--I end up at the Motel 6
I see my car parked in front, visions of pussies and dicks
I thought my dick was the only dick she sucked,
the only nigga she fucked
I guess I was wrong, then my mind got gone
It was on
Metamorphasize, now she dies
Dr. Jekyl turns into Mr. Hyde
I ran to the room with the strongest pussy fumes
Comin through the do', didn't know what was in sto'
I kicked the do' open...oh shit, guess what I saw?
Eazy-E, was fuckin my bitch raw--AW

(Not Eazy, not EAZY!!)

If I can't have you, no nigga can [x2]

(Baby.....baby.....I gotta kill my bitch--I'm gon miss her)

 

[fox69]

"If This Ain't Hell"

"If This Ain't Hell"


Free your mind and you ass will follow...
The kingdom of heaven is the man
Free your mind and your ass will follow...
The kingdom of heaven is the man
Are you woke, or are you sleepin'?
The devil's groove is slowin' creepin',
It's too late, what's my fate?
Will they let me in heaven's gates?
Knock, knock, knockin' on heaven's doors,
I see whores fuckin' on the floors.
The fire's burnin', the cross is turnin',
Upside down, now I'm learnin'.
I know you knew, well I did too,
The devil's in the soup,
I drink the witch's brew.
Red Rum got to get me some,
Bloody Mary, now my body's numb.
I go, you go,
The serpent and the rainbow.
Adam and Eve, I believe,
Pickin' fruit off the wicket trees.
Will I bite?
I just might,
If I do then I'm through.
Lord forgive me, how I lived,
How's your wife, and my kids?
I did the crime, I'll do the time,
White man trapped inside my mind,
Adam and Eve, Jesus Christ, Elvis Presley, Vincent Price.
Nappy hair, black sheep,
In wolf's clothing, it's all deep.
Prophecies, comin' true,
Something you all never knew.
Will you love me, will you hate me?
Would you let your daughter date me?
Where would I take her out on a date?
We'll go knockin' on heaven's gates.
The President wants me dead,
For some of those things I said.
Heaven's gates, the White House gates,
Water Gates, paper plates.
Look inside your dollar bill,
In God we trust, if you will,
The pyramid is the great seal.
And all that stuff they had to steal.
Black man runnin' through six degrees,
The Bible in his hands, still on his knees.
Still got to ask the other man, please,
Gimme powder milk, and welfare cheese.

[Chorus 4x]
If this ain't hell, I can't tell,
Sell my soul inside my cell.

Washington, Redskins, Black skins, let me in.
Welfare in DC,
The President says vote for me.
If I do, it seems odd,
How one man, becomes God.
White House, White man,
God is money so understand.
His plans, master plan,
Is to kill off the black man, Jewish man, China man,
It really don't matter with gun in hand.
War sucks, big bucks,
Tell me they don't give a fuck.

[Chorus 2x]

What is the difference?(What is the difference?)
Between(New Orleans!) 1825(And New York!) 1992(Washington!) 1776(Miami!) 1995 In Cut City,
There are no black people left,
There are no black people left in Cut City!
There are no Negros left, no coons left, no Jigs left, no Niggers left!

 

[fox69]

"Intro (Hallucinagenics)"

"Intro (Hallucinagenics)"


[Talking]
Runnin' wit' 5 lane bros, seein' things. Here's ya intro
to acid hallucinagenics. Human beings... Y'all 12 rap on that.

[Chorus]
I take this war shit deeply
You should be avoiding my recording
I take this war shit deeply
'Cuz murder's my rewarding [x2]

So many trials and tribulations
Havin' wicked conversations
With God and Satan, thug and desperation
So many killas across the nation
Live in anialation, but I'm ready to kill some shit
Mental patient, impatient
Watch me change the situation wit' this murder demonstration
When I blow your ass away when you out free-basin'
Still runnin' up in the race, facin' racists
Just racin', comtemplatin' suicide still idle time wastin'
Still a Nation Ahead of Time And Space
The rag over my face
If you ride wit' me you might end up in a police chase
I will not surrender
I don't recommend the Wicked Shit for you
You just a hoe, and you can't do what I do
It's hard to perform under these circumstances
Penitentiary chances
Watch the devil when he dances
You'll need an ambulances, puttin' em in trances
Hypnotize, watch you wake up when I snap my fingas
Open ya eyes, open ya eyes

[Chorus]

I take this war shit deeply, peep me
Never hang where the weak be
Always woke, never sleepy
I keep the uzi and I'll wet you like a jacuzzi
Kick shit like a Suzuki, hit you wit' the Horuki
Back up offa me
What the fuck
Niggaz get that cash up
Hoes bounce that ass up
Back up offa me
What the fuck
Niggaz get that cash up
Hoes bounce that ass up
I shoot a little 'caine
Paranoid insane
Schizophrenic
'Panic Attack'
I'm manic
Depressed
Stressed the fuck out
Keep the heat on me at all times
So my shirt it kinda stuck out
Don't make me draw down and buck out
'Cuz where I'm from when the guns bust
They leave ya fuckin' guts out

[Chorus]

So many rules and regulations
Bein' broke, death by speculation
The world's fascination with self afflicted mutilation
How can I obtain the power through manifestation
Immortalized and bomb mummification
Peep the translation, check communications
Run at top secret operations

 

[fox69]

"Jackie"

"Jackie"


I know a bitch, who like to suck dick drink nut
That type a bitch, that type a slut
Her name is Jackie, the ho is kinda tacky
Went to suckin and fuckin
I said lady cab driver, lady cadiver
She'll off her panties in the backseat of a taxi
No one does it better make it wetter and I've never
Met a freak like you fuckin like a prostitute
But your specialty is suckin D-I-C-K
Everyday, All day, any day
You dont even have to ask she'll suck it anyway
And she likes to swallow bottle after bottle of nut
Goin to the doctor's and gettin her stomach pumped
I dont reckon she's thinkin about the nut she's drinkin
But when she's suckin on my dick I thought her eye was blinkin

[CHORUS x8]
Oh Jackie, Jackie
Oh Jackie, Jackie, Jackie baby

And for some reason, she likes to give me H-E-A-D
She's not my lady, she's just another bitch to me
I mean her mouth feels better than her pussy to me
She tole me "Cum tastes good to me"
So drink it, drink it, and drink it till your mouths stinkin
When I think about you I bust a nut without thinkin
I mean her mouth feels just like it aint real
Up to this day I been bustin nuts on her tonsill's
So gimme jaw bone and watch ya jaw break
I be bustin nuts in her mouth for ole times sake
Shes givin up the play every single fuckin day
And when she's suckin on my dick I just say "Fuckin A"
You'll never guess, she drinks the nut till it's gone away
So when I see the ho I just have to say

[CHORUS x8]
Oh Jackie, Jackie
Oh Jackie, Jackie, Jackie baby

 

[fox69]

"Judgement Day"

"Judgement Day"


Red, black, and green, you know what I mean?
Like the devil did all this shit.
This is judgement day..
Jesus Christ is black...
This is judgement day..
Jesus is white with blond hair, and blue eyes...
This is judgement day...
Do black people get in heaven, mommy, huh?
This is judgement day..
And as leader of the KKK, kill all niggers!
Judgement day, 666, no time to pray, so don't say amen,
We're headin' for Armaggedon,
I'm bleedin' as I'm sweatin',
As I walk the flatlines, we're runnin outta time.
Dead by day is what I said sometimes though,
I'd rather be dead is what I said so take it slow.
Time to pay back, so hit the play back,
Visions of killin' preachers in a psychotic flash back.
God's gonna get me, that's what they told me a minute ago,
The fallen angel strangle seven row,
And in that time I learned one thing, jack,
Follow the yellow brick road, and don't look back.
Now they tryin' to get me, but I'ma get you first,
The unholy dead, so now I think it's much worse.
Good and evil collide, Jeckel and nigga hyde,
Put 'em together and you get another homicide.
Suicidal tendencies tend to get in the way,
Face your sins, Armaggedon, it's judegment day.
Day of judgement, God is calling!
And as God has struck the hour..
Thou shall not sin, so I grin as I sing a song,
Who the fuck are you, to tell me what's right and wrong?
Death is in my eyes, I wear no disguise,
You're gonna pay for those little white lies.
No more Mr. nice guy, I filibust,
When I said fuck you, I was disgusted,
But you can't trust it, 'cause I can't trust it,
Reverend Swagger, the preacher busted.
You're goin' to hell, for all your sins,
Pins and needles, needles and pins.
Voodoo doctor, on the rocks with vodka,
The preacher got busted with a whore, got ya!
Man on the moon, but still can't fly right,
Now he's gonna fake his death, he can't die right.
Selling Bibles on the corner but you'll pay,
For all your sins, it's judgement day.
Day of judgement, God is calling!
Satan laughing spreads his wings, Oh lord yeah!
You mutha fuckin' sinner, blind ass bitch,
Stealin' from the poor, just to get rich.
Judgement day, you're gonna pay and you'll burn,
They're gonna tie your ass to a stake and let ya burn.
For all that punk ass shit you tried, Praise the lord!
Bitch be quiet!
'cause you can't brain wash me, I'm not brain dead,
You're better off takin' two to the head.
Judgement day, Armaggedon is on it's way,
Now the last thing you wanna do is pray.
You say you're sorry for all those things you did,
But that don't work.
You say you're sorry for all those souls you stole,
But that don't work.
You say you're sorry for stealin' that money out the collection plate,
Now meet your fate, it's judgement day!
Satan laughin', oh lord yeah! [14x]

 

[fox69]

"Kill Or Be Killed"

"Kill Or Be Killed"


in 1989 i was pushin dimes out the crack houses
tryin to get my meal on
i got my cell on
i murdered 2 baseheads coz they tried to tell on
the nigga with the 3-5-7 chrome, my mind was gone
when i did dirt, i was alone
got on
got strong
i put my homie down, and we was down
in the summer time we made it snow all over town
200 Gs made money still coming in
gotta connect with the ill columbian
no matter who u trust u simply cannot win
it's always fun in the beginning but it's pain in the end
my homie got shot, murdered on 7-mile
in broad daylight
at night
i squeeze the AK tight
and fear i might be next in line
for the body chalk outline
its going down...

[chorus x4]
Kill or be killed nigga
u ain't real nigga
feel my steel nigga

it seems niggaz wanna test me
police out to arrest me
coz the streets scream child molest me
i emptied out the full clip
now police got they hands full of bullshit
its drug related
so they hate it
i figure it was that nigga who i last sold the perokee
murdered my homie in his cherokee
i saw that nigga at the mcdonalds drive through, so i pulled up to his bumper
and unloaded my dumper
he had, his bitch and his baby in the car
but i didn't give a fuck, automatically unloaded, all of they asses got struck
187 on my pistol bullets to throw away
cop cars pull into the mcdonalds as i try to get away
they say we got the car surrounded, come out with your hands up
at this point i didn't give a fuck!
it's going down...

[chorus x4]

murder weapon in my hands, dead bodies i blast
havin the whole city's souls just a thing of the past
they wanna negotiate my surrender, no way i ain't goin out like that
i looked at him, and cocked the gat
flashbacks of bloody bodies and cemeteries
so i did what was nessacary
and what was nessacary was...
[cops yelling out stuff and Esham running]

 

[fox69]

"Kill The Fetus"

"Kill The Fetus"


"Mother Earth is pregnant for the third time
for y'all have knocked her up
I have tasted the maggots in the mind of the universe
I was not offended, for I knew I had to rise above it all
or drown in my own shit."
"Mother Earth is Pregnant" [x7]
"...for the third time"

[Esham]
Why did you want to live the life in this world we live in?
Love ain't worth a dime, so then you nothin' to give him
The baby has no father, he ran out on the mama
So raise him as cannibal to be like Jeffrey Dahmer
You life is really worthless, you live and then you die
You go to die, and bodies rot and then your wonder why
And then you live in doubt, can you live or live without
The fact you know you can't afford to feed another mouth
Your head is steady spinin', the Devil's steady grinin'
While you was steady sinning from the very first beginning
Is it a boy or a girl, I think I should referral
You should terminate it, because it's a lousy world
You life on the line, you're out ya fuckin' mind
You gotta do it too, 'cause you're running outta time
It's just another embryo, attached to an umbilical
You can let that baby grow, but I'd kill it though,
kill the fetus

[many samples ""]
"It's a lousy world"
"He's fighting for his life"
"Mother Earth is pregnant for the third..."
"cool my hot ass down"
Kill the Fetus
"It's a lousy word"
"Mother...Mother earth is pregnant for the third time"

[Esham]
The baby's premature, the mother is a whore
Contemplatin' suicide so what you waiting for
I think I heard a kickin', but that's a normal state
Gem a hanger in ya asshole until your water brake
You better use some caution, Givin' yourself an abortion
Death's the only way to solve a suicide solution
So here's my contribution, my suicide solution
You play the game of death, but then you can't win for losin'
You wonder if you want this, or should you kill the fetus?
Life is just a waste, so then you outta just delete this
Problem to society, society's a problem
My suicide solution is a 38 revolver
I'm your problem solver, your life is full of horror
Some are born to die and yet some will die tomorrow
Vagina tissue's torn, your pussy's kinda worn
I think I outta warn, if you're having an aborn.
Your inner one perspective, there is one contraceptive
Your M.P.D. is positive,
so you can let that baby live
It's just another embryo, attached to an umbilical
You can let that baby grow, but I'd kill it though,
kill the fetus

[more samples ""]
"Mother Earth is Pregnant" [x7]
"The seventh boyfriend could fuck good and that's all"
"The seventeenth boyfriend had a herpes dick"
"The hundredth boyfriend hypnotized my Vagina"

[Esham]
The planet's really fucked, so now ya kinda stuck
You should of thought about it, before you bust a nut
It is a lousy world, I live a lousy life
I think I outta stab you in the stomach wit the knife
Or push you down a flight of steps, until you fall and break ya neck
Did a little damage, can you manage your miscarriage?
Life is not a choice, death is the alternative
Or should you let it grow up in this fucked up world that we live in
These are the consequences, add one more to the State Census
Born to die in poverty, so tell me what's existence?
It's just another embryo, attached to an umbilical
You can let that baby grow, but I'd kill it though,
kill the fetus

[more samples ""]
"It's a lousy world"
"I've been through this before baby"
"cool my hot ass down"
Kill the Fetus
"It's a lousy world"
"Mother Earth is Pregnant for the third time"
"Cool my hot ass down" [x4]
"When another number girlfriend comes along, he'll think of me when he fucks her!" [x4]