Diorama

[ainulindale]

BELLE

You come on dance with me
To the end of the world

Still remember your smiling face in the big crowd
Laughing, shou ting and waving your hands
Staring at me instead of
Turning away to the show

Blind in one eye I stood still at the outside
Yearning for solutions
While the dancers were turning
Faster and faster towards me

The words in your letters I couldn't decipher
Never allowed to fall for the sun
For the rain is intended for me

Come on dance with me
To the end of the world

Absorbed in the lips
Of a graceful dancing princess
Too deeply affected, too bright the sun
But my shadows have always loved you

Empty stage now peace of mind
Rememberance of the time instead
Save another dance only for me
Only for me

You come on dance with me
To the end of the world

Unvoiced my swaying promises
Unproved the impossible
I cannot fall for the sun
The rain is intended for me

 

[ainulindale]

Leaving Hollywood

Emptiness dead-smooth and choking the air
I’m, leaving Hollywood if you don’t care
lost in the twilight of self-consciousness
trying to picture the smile you might wear

Where are the plastic doves ready to kill
the inspiration I try to fulfill
Cry for me sister on Valentine’s day
you’ll find me lying on Hollywood Hills

Spoke to an acolyte coming my way
the weather is fine what a wonderful day
his bloody robe suits him tolerably well
but he can never induce me to stay

Your double-dealing voice hits me so low
but I’m your henchman so I have to go
nobody sees that I’m only your frame
when I left Hollywood they all will know

Someday you gonna crucify me in a black-painted room
you gonna call all your opponents who gonna spit me in the
ace hit me in the face
and I will laugh about everyone
I’d cover my mug if I could

Emptiness dead-smooth and choking the air
I’m leaving Hollywood if you don’t care
lost in the twilight of self-consciousness
trying to picture the smile you might wear
trying to picture the smile you might wear
trying to picture the smile you might wear

 

[ainulindale]

Her Liquid Arms

And still the man chatted pleasantly and smiled. Was it possible? They heard not. Almighty God, no... no. They heard. They suspected. They knew! They were making a mockery of my horror. This, I thought. And this I think. But anything was better than this agony. Anything was more tolerable than this derision. I could bear those hypocritical smiles no longer. I felt that I must scream or die. And now again hark! Louder, louder, louder, louder! Dissembled horror, I admit the deed. Care of the planks? Hear. Hear! It is the beating of his hideous heart!

They say your ailing doves get caught
They say her peace will make you weak
They now obtain your words by fraud
And modulate them as they speak

Beyond her walls I shatter mine
Towards her charming lies I crawl
Her heart got sore as she found mine
Into her liquid arms I fall

Her noiseless treads delight my ears
I bury dreams along her shore
In radiant black her gliding tears
Under her surface so much more

Beyond her walls I shatter mine
Towards her charming lies I crawl
Her heart got sore as she found mine
Into her liquid arms I fall

 

[ainulindale]

E Minor

Finally contented soul
now did you lacerate
me long enough

While all enticing secrets
were slowly whispering
'unearthly love'

The words I have the spells I know
were not enough to make you happy
to make you smile again

Like roses your drugs in bloom
in psychic beauty
my frantic heart

I thought I saw you gloating over
my private inferno
you owe me answers

The words I have the spells I know
were not enough to make you happy
to make you smile again

The nights and days in wasteful void
the glints of hope as small defense
the smiles I faked the blood I shed
my drifts of smoke my 3 letter friends

The words I have the spells I know
were not enough to make you happy
to make you smile again

 

[ainulindale]

Advance

Life-exhaling sleep petrified in marbleized composure
as I drown in her calm breathing
I start to live beyond her notions
faking balance - obvious easy

Bright-inspiring dark
that is never to be brightened
sphinx-like stupid I surrender
poets comment poets never change
paralyzed with sadness here I am

Carry me - anywhere and she’ll be waiting
let me be - resting by her patiently and
maybe she - will shatter all the truth inside my
agony - a promised word to save the silence

Life-inhaling sleep
and above me heavens full of roses
full of orchids glittering in the moonlight
dream-absorbing stars reflect in her eyes
leave me very restless

Carry me - anywhere and she’ll be waiting
let me be - resting by her patiently and
maybe she - will shatter all the truth inside my
agony - a promised word to save the silence

Life-recovering sleep
reveling in self-contained illusions
illusive flowers obey the dawn
is it my way ramifying before me
paralyzed with sadness here I am

Carry me - anywhere and she’ll be waiting
let me be - resting by her patiently and
maybe she - will shatter all the truth inside my
agony - a promised word to save the silence

 

[ainulindale]

Light

Here you are with your story
and no one wants to hear
here you are with your fiction
and no one wants to see

Except for you

And your light will it shine on
shine for you and me
and your light will it shine on
shine for you and me

And your sad unknown islands
waiting for your thoughts
on the horizon
and your vacant eyes beside me

Just a breath away
won’t return my gaze

Here you are

And your liberation
and your undulating dance
in tantalizing slowness
and your distance that you chose
tell me did you find
all your explanations inside your
diorama

And your once invented gray
genius-like appearance
almost succeeded
and your soundless cries for more
anti-life will die
away unheeded

And your light will it shine on

 

[ainulindale]

Howland Road

Yes to brides and yes to grooms
we all deserve champagne and caviar
freeze your motions realizing
trembling here does not affect you
run for cover run for shelter
their demands are way too sober
trembling here does not affect you
zittern hier betrifft dich nicht
can you see them waiting for you
mind-programming their seductions
like the tumors of your loved ones
all makes sense and emptiness remains

I'm drifting in a storm
behind my little window
can you see me?
can you see me?
I'm creeping under words
and riddles and aggressions
can you hear me?
can you hear me?

Try your luck on unknown streets
so trembling here does not affect you
have another drink or two
so very nice so very nice
children killed by smoking drivers
cannot hug their orphan pandas
all makes sense it all makes sense
for trembling here does not affect you
've been too so rry been too friendly
been too weak or been too normal
this was not expected from you
all makes sense and emptiness remains

I'm drifting in a storm
behind my little window
can you see me?
can you see me?
I'm creeping under words
and riddles and aggressions
can you hear me?
can you hear me?

So let your children entertain you
let your children entertain you

 

[ainulindale]

You and Ice

Iceblue shadow
Gliding through the air like wind
Will you follow
Me when I can't find the way

Am I wrong now
To hold onto your promised sun
Am I wrong now
To think ingrained believes can stay

How can I thaw
All the frozen lakes between you and me
Unless you drown
Unless you drown the way I do

Bound for nowhere
Never move until I'm gone
My reflection
Unfold it safely in your arms

Molten diamonds
Crystallized your tears like salt
Still you follow
To live in dreams beyond recall

How can I thaw
All the frozen lakes between you and me
Unless you drown
Unless you drown the way I do

Do you feel alive
Buried deep in ice
You can call my name
With your mellow voice
But why?

 

[ainulindale]

Colder

Trace me down by the
dawn-breaking hills
where no thought
is ever wasted
these tormented souls
will never prevail
never prevail
never prevail
never prevail

Trace me down by
these uncertain fields
as the days are getting colder
endless circles on the ice
the air untouched and clean
kept silent by
this unknown power

Trace me down by these
uncertain fields
as the days are getting colder
these tormented souls
will never prevail
never prevail
never prevail
never prevail

 

[ainulindale]

Blessed

I am so obsessed
with all your sacred gifts
your beauty surely is
designed to save my soul

And rescue from the grey
my air, my sound, my substance
my fate, my path, my inner
my frozen labyrinth

And if it ends right here
I won't resist the call
no need for hesitation
no joy I could have missed

I'll dive into the dark
forearmed for the last fight
my purpose is fulfilled
'cause I'm blessed with your love

I am on your drip
wrapped inside your flames
floating in black water
filled with unknown hurt

Your lips my temple
your voice my soothing wind
your touch my morphine
your eyes - my infinity

And if it ends right here
I won't resist the call
no need for hesitation
no joy I could have missed

I'll dive into the dark
forearmed for the last fight
my purpose is fulfilled
'cause I'm blessed with your love.