Alanis Morissette

[fox69]

"That I Would Be Good"


that I would be good even if I did nothing
that I would be good even if I got the thumbs down
that I would be good if I got and stayed sick
that I would be good even if I gained ten pounds

that I would be fine even if I went bankrupt
that I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth
that I would be great if I was no longer queen
that I would be grand if I was not all knowing

that I would be loved even when I numb myself
that I would be good even when I am overwhelmed
that I would be loved even when I was fuming
that I would be good even if I was clingy

that I would be good even if I lost sanity
that I would be good
whether with or without you

 

[fox69]

"That Particular Time"


my foundation was rocked my tried and true way to deal was to vanish
my departures were old I stood in the room shaking in my boots
at that particular time love had challenged me to stay
at that particular moment I knew not run away again
that particular month I was ready to investigate with you
at that particular time

we thought a break would be good for four months we sat and vacillated
we thought a small time apart would clear up the doubts that were abounding
at that particular time love encouraged me to wait
at that particular moment it helped me to be patient
that particular month we needed time to marinate in what "us" meant

I've always wanted for you what you've wanted for yourself
and yet I wanted to save us high water or hell
and I kept on ignoring the ambivalence you felt
and in the meantime I lost myself
in the meantime I lost myself
I'm sorry I lost myself¡-.i am

you knew you needed more time time spent alone with no distraction
you felt you needed to fly solo and high to definewhat you wanted
at that particular time love encouraged me to leave
at that particular moment I knew staying with you meant deserting me
that particular month was harder than you'd believe but I still left
at that particular time

 

[fox69]

"The Bottom Line"


If somebody asked you to surrender
and that was the only way to win
if somebody offered you the freedom to open your mind again
would you take that flight
would you walk right in

so meet me down at the bottom line
and open my heart with your hands
and we'll hear the sound of pretenses falling
and find where the truth has been
down at the bottom line

if somebody led you to the water
if somebody taught you (right?) how to swim
if somebody took your doubt and turned it out
and then you could breathe again
would you take that chance
would you dive right in

so meet me down at the bottom line
and open my heart with your hands
and we'll hear the sound of pretenses falling
and find where the truth has been
down at the bottom line

what if the wind blows
the cradle will fall
what if the wise man knows nothing at all
we justify
we crucify
but we don't have the balls to cry

so meet me down at the bottom line
and open my heart with your hands
and we'll hear the sound of pretenses falling
and find where the truth has been
down at the bottom line

where truth always flows
that's where we'll go

 

[fox69]

"The Couch"


you hadn't seen your father in such a long time
he died in the arms of his lover how dare he
your mother never left the house
she never married anyone else you took it upon yourself to console her

you reminded her so much of your father
so you were banished and you wonder why you're so hypersensitive
and why you can't trust anyone but us
but then how can I begin to forgive her so many years under bridges with dirty water
she was foolish and selfish and cowardly if you ask me

I don't know where to begin in all of my 50 odd years
I have been silently suffering and adapting perpetuating and enduring
who are you younger generation to tell me that I have unresolved problems
not many examples of fruits of this type of excruciating labour

how can you just throw words around like grieve and heal and mourn
I feel fine we may not have been born as awake as you were
it was much harder in those days we had paper routes uphill both ways
we went from school to a job to a wife to instant parenthood

I walked into his office I felt so self-conscious on the couch
he was sitting down across from me he was writing down his hypothesis I don't know
i've got a loving supportive wife who doesn't know how involved she should get
you say his interjecting was him just calling me on my shit?

just the other day my sweet daughter I was driving past 203 I walked up the stairs in my mind's eye
I remember how they would creak loudly
she was only responsive with a drink he was only responsive by photo
I was only trying to be the best big brother I could

i've walked sometimes confused sometimes ready to crack open wide
sometimes indignant sometimes raw
can you imagine I pay him 75 dollars an hour sometimes
it feels like highway robbery
and sometimes it's peanuts
I wish it could last a couple more hours

so here we both are battling similar demons (not coincidentally)
you see n getting beyond knowing it solely intellectually you're not relinquishing your majestry
you are wise you are warm you are courageous you are big
and I love you more now than I ever have in my whole life

 

[fox69]

"The Guy Who Leaves"


Get up, don't get up
I beg you to sit tight
Sweet girl, I'll be a ghost, girl
Forget it, I am fine

If anything, a witnessing
Is all I needed that night

Until I get what I'm to get
He'll keep being compelled to flee
Until I out his false story
He'll keep playing the guy who leaves

Brother, oh, brother
Solo you did bust out
All I knew was you didn't invite me
So begin seeds of self-doubt

There is nothing as harrowing
As how I translate facts

Until I get what I'm to get
He'll keep being compelled to flee
Until I out his false story
He'll keep playing the guy who leaves

Baby, oh, partner
How well you've played this part
Similar, oh, how familiar
Reluctant truth you impart

And how you served necessity
Repeat 'til she sees light

Until I get what I'm to get
He'll keep being compelled to flee
Until I out his false story
I'll keep blaming the guy who leaves

 

[fox69]

"The Morning"
(from "A Small Section Of The World" soundtrack)



[Verse 1:]
So it starts with the pauses
As singular and quiet
It's still and it is patient
Intended as it grows
And we go
From sunrise to sun falling
From daughter to sister
Angels through Maria

[Verse 2:]
Our reaching is daunting
But perfectly far reaching
And our mission is joined
With our children returning
There's blood and there's sweat
And there's fears unabated
And there's grief in the night time
While the phoenix is rising
Rising high leading me home

[Chorus 1:]
So this is the morning
We're born into blending
We're led by the senses
We're serving our family
We're graced by the tender
We're upping the ante
We can't help but orient
Homebound t'ward unity

[Bridge:]
And this sight of inclusion
This [?] protected
[?] safe by intention
Educate me far and wide

[Verse 3:]
And this small section of the world
It calls me to my highest
To true collaboration

[Alternate lyrics:]
Senses are delicate
And fashion toward the whole
The tales, they're high
The vibes, they're high
The tales, they're tall
My specialty
I am carrying by
This shaky arm

[Chorus 2:]
So this is the morning
We're born into blending
We're led by the senses
We're serving our family
And these are our sisters
And this our specialty
And this our commitment to whole

[Outro: Vocalizing]

 

[fox69]

"The Time Of Your Life"


Standing there on a road that leads to anywhere
Like a child left in the wilderness, standing there penniless
Wanting to be the best

Here's a place where life runs at a different pace
Where love is just convenient, none are obedient
And we are subservient

Look at me, I'm a girl that some may preconceive
Why do they try and generalize, why are they antagonizing me
But something I can't control that...

[CHORUS:]
I Wantcha
You know I'll never stop 'til I've gotcha
You'll never be quite the same when I rock ya
I'm not the kind of girl that you thought I was
You'll have a good time 'cause I wantcha
I'm breaking down the walls 'till I have you, feel you
Show you the time of your life

Here we are and I wonder how we've come this far
In a world that does not recognize women are victimized
What does that symbolize

Why do I want the things I usually criticize
It may be self destructiveness, or maybe it's emptiness inside
But something I can't control that...

[CHORUS]

You'll have a good time...
It's a lonely road, and no one knows the way that I feel
I'm not giving up now... I'll never try to justify
They'll never understand, you'll be a happy man
You'll have the time of your life

It's something, it's something, it's something that I can't control
The time of your life...

 

[fox69]

"These Are The Thoughts"


These are the thoughts that go through my head
in my backyard on a sunday afternoon
when I have the house to myself and I am not
spending all that energy on fighting
with my
boy
friend

Is he the one that I will marry
and why is it so hard to be eager to myself
and why do I feel cellularly alone
am I supposed to live in this crazy city
you mean
I'm not
acorn

Where does the money go that I send
to charities if we have so much why do some people have
nothing still I do, I feel frantic when I
first wake up in the morning
why do you say you are spiritual
yet you treat people like shit

How can you say you're close to God
and yet you talk behind
my back as though I'm not
a part of you, why do
you say "you're fine" when it's
obvious you are not
why's it so hard to tell you what I want
why can't you just read my mind?

Why do I fear that the quieter I am
the less people will listen
why do I care whether you like me or not
why's it so hard for me to be angry
why is it so hard to become
push on and then so easy to get stuck
and not the other way around

Will I ever move back to Canada again
I'd be with a lover with whom I am a student
and don't ask why am I encouraged to shut my mouth
when it gets too close to home, why cannot I
live
in the
moment

 

[fox69]

"This Grudge"


Fourteen years
Thirty minutes
Fifteen seconds I've
Held this grudge

Eleven songs
Four full journals
Thoughts of punishment
I've expended

Not in contact
Not a letter
Such communication
Telepathic
You've been vilified
Used as fodder
You deserve a piece
Of every record

But who's it hurting now?
Who's the one that's stuck?
Who's it torturing now
With an antique knot in her stomach?

I want to be big and let go
Of this grudge that's grown old
All this time I've not known
How to rest this bygone
I wanna be soft and resolved
Clean of slate and released
I wanna forgive for the both of us

Like an abandoned house
Dusty covered
Furniture
Still intact
If I visit it now
Will I simply re-live it
Somehow gratuitous

But who's still aching now?
Who's tired of her own voice?
Who is it weighing down
With no gift from time of said healing

I want to be big and let go
Of this grudge that's grown old
All this time I've not known
How to rest this bygone
I wanna be soft and resolved
Clean of slate and released
I wanna forgive for the both of us

Maybe as I cut the cord
Veils will lift from my eyes
Maybe as I lay this to rest
Dead weight off my shoulders will rise

Here I sit
Much determined
Ever ill-equipped
To draw this curtain
How this has entertained
Validated
And has served me well
Ever the victim

But who's done whining now?
Who's ready to put down
This load I've carried longer than I had cared to remember

I want to be big and let go
Of this grudge that's grown old
For the life of me I've not known
How to rest this bygone
I wanna be soft and resolved
Clean of slate and released
I wanna forgive for the both of us.

 

[fox69]

"Til You"


I’ve been wasting time
Clawing my way to you
Taking no prisoners with my romantic crimes
I’ve been holding on imagining glimpses of you
Holding my breath while you come down the pike

Spinning my wheels around
I’m here, dodging bullets til you
Ear to the ground
While I'm dodging bullets til you

I’ve been taking notes
Nursing the thought of you
Research and deliver 'cause I’m biding my time
I’ve been holding on this magnet that calls to you
Entertaining myself with these consolation prizes

Spinning my wheels around
I’m here, dodging bullets til you
Ear to the ground
While I'm dodging bullets til you

They’ve been plenty fond
But mere placeholders for you
They fill this dance card
As you form in my mind

Spinning my wheels around
I’m here, dodging bullets til you
Ear to the ground
I’m here, dodging bullets til you

Til you