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[fox69]

"...But Home Is Nowhere"

"...But Home Is Nowhere"



Twenty-six years and seems like I've just begun
To understand my, my intimate is no one
When the director sold the show, who bought its last rites?
They cut the cast, the music, and the lights

This is my line, this is eternal
How did I ever end up here?
Discarnate, preternatural
My prayers to disappear
Absent of grace, marked as infernal
Ungranted in dead time left me disowned
To this nature, so unnatural
I remain alone

Twenty-six years end, still speaking in these tongues
Such revelations while understood by no one
When the new actor stole the show, who questioned his grace?
Please clear the house of ill-aquired taste

This is my line, this is eternal
How did I ever end up here?
Discarnate, preternatural
My prayers to disappear
Absent of grace, marked as infernal
Ungranted in dead time left me disowned
To this nature, so unnatural
I remain alone

Give me something, give me something
Give me something, give me something
Give me something, give me something real

I lay strewn across the floor, can't solve this puzzle
Everyday another small piece can't be found
I lay strewn across the floor, pieced up in sorrow
The pieces are lost, these pieces don't fit
Pieced together incomplete and empty

This is my line, this is eternal
How did I ever end up here?
Discarnate, preternatural
My prayers to disappear
Absent of grace, marked as infernal
Ungranted in dead time left me disowned
To this nature, so unnatural
I remain alone

This is my line, this is eternal
How did I end up here?
Discarnate, preternatural
My prayers to disappear
Absent of grace, marked as infernal
Ungranted in dead time left me disowned
To this nature, so unnatural
I remain alone

 

[fox69]

"100 Words"

"100 Words"



This is the final night, boys.
We are the cracks in diamond walls.
I tried to illuminate but the shadows kill.
I'm overshadowed. See how I blend in with nothing?

Now beautiful boys, let's destroy.
We'll shine as the lucite breaks and falls.
Raise the new glitter god with the golden tears - the tears that swallow.
A smile that's touched so warms nothing.

Yesterday I burnt the sky, looked to the ground and wrapped it around me.
Still today I have so much to burn.
Yesterday I longed to die, fell to the ground, and the ground caught me.
Now today I question why I fell.
I fell.

Deities fell to decoys, tainting what's pure.
Let's cleanse them all.

Infinite life reclaimed, as the shadows kill they are overshadowed.
Well burn as they fade into nothing.

Yesterday I burnt the sky, looked to the ground and wrapped it around me.
Still today I have so much to burn.
Yesterday I longed to die, fell to the ground, and the ground caught me.
Now today I question why I fell.

So what can help me to understand somehow why it always pains me to, pains me to breathe?
We're no longer confined because yesterday I burnt the sky.
We're no longer confined because yesterday I burnt the sky.

Yesterday I burnt the sky, looked to the ground and wrapped it around me.
Still today I have so much to burn, to burn.
Yesterday I longed to die, fell to the ground, and the ground caught me.
Now today I question why I fell.
I fell

(We're no longer confined)
I fell
(because yesterday I burnt the sky)
I fell

Because yesterday I...

 

[fox69]

"17 Crimes"

"17 Crimes"



If you had a day,
would you give me a moment?
Would you allow our play
to leave no bone unbroken?

Let’s love, like 17.
I’m in love with poisoning.
Only bring your pretty, frightful gifts to me.
Let’s love, and kill like 17 now.

If I weren’t so cold,
we could unfreeze this moment.
And as the world grow old,
We’ll leave no heart unbroken.

Let’s love, like 17.
I’m in love with poisoning.
Only bring your pretty, frightful gifts to me.
Let’s love, and kill like 17 now.

Tomorrow cannot be like this.
And even though it’s such a simple world,
tomorrow cannot be like this.
Tomorrow they will take a stand.
We’ll leave no heart unbroken.

Let’s love, like 17.
I’m in love, with poisoning.
Only bring your pretty, frightful gifts to me
Let’s love, and kill like 17 now.

Let’s love, like 17.
I’m in love with your new screams.
Only bring those pretty, frightful things to me.
Let’s love, and kill like 17 now.

Let’s run, and kill like 17 now.

Let’s love, and kill like 17.

 

[fox69]

"3 1/2"

"3 1/2"



why am i this way?
tell me why?
why am i this way?
why?
open wounds in the palms of my hands,
festering through infections time.
I feel so faint as my life spills over you.
back step over glass as I repent.
I fear I cannot prevent myself
from spilling your life all over me.
go! I'm so sick, so sick of myself.
Mother, say you'll pray for me.
I'm so sick, so sick of myself.
I'm premature in my decay.
I'm so sick, so sick of myself.
Mother, say you'll pray for me.
I'm so sick, so sick of myself.
Shards of glass swimming in my eyes.
A small voice in the back of my mind
that's whispering words I never want to hear.
I pray that you won't hesitate,
as you watch me degenerate, to reach
in my wounds and extract all of my fear.
yeah! I'm so sick, so sick of myself.
Mother, say you'll pray for me.
I'm so sick, so sick of myself.
I'm premature in my decay.
I'm so sick, so sick of myself.
Mother, say you'll pray for me.
I'm so sick, so sick of myself.
My suffocation, asphyxiation.
I've been choking on my own blood.
My suffocation, asphyxiation.
I've been choking on my own blood.
I'm so sick, so sick of myself.
Mother, say you'll pray for me.

 

[fox69]

"37mm"

"37mm"


Bring your secrets to me,
Just give me your hands,
And I'll let you feel the wounds.
They put in me.

If you believe in me,
How can I be dissolving?
If you'd believe me,
I'd tell you everything.

Do you fall too?
(everytime that I)
Yes, I fall.
(everytime that I)
Do you want to,
(try to pacify)

Fall into me?
(fall into me)
(fall into me)
Into me.

Silence can you hear me?
Press me to your lips,
And I'll suck the poison out.
Who will heal me? me..

If you keep killing me,
How can I keep absolving?
Your sins into me,
Begin the poisoning.

Do you fall too?
(everytime that I)
Yes, I fall.
(everytime that I)
Do you want to,
(try to pacify)

Fall into me?
(fall into me)
(fall into me)
Into me.

Time, time, time,
We're not, waiting.
Time, time, time
We're no one.

[distant:] unknown. unknown.

Do you fall too?
(everytime that I)
Yes, I fall.
(everytime that I)
Do you want to?
(try to pacify)

Fall into me
(fall into me)

Do you fall too?
(everytime that I)
Yes, I fall.
(everytime that I)
Do you want to,
(try to pacify)

Fall into me
(fall into me)
(fall into me)
Into me.

We are no one.
We are no one.
We are one.
We are no one.
We are,
We are no one.
We are no one.
We are one.
We are no one.
We are,
We are no one.
We are no one.
We are one.
We are no one.
We are,
We are no one.
We are no one.
We are one.
We are no one.
We are,
We are no one.
We are no one.
We are one.
We are no one.
We are. [in background of this "we are": no one]

 

[fox69]

"6 To 8"

"6 To 8"



Six figures enter; they've come to destroy the world.
They've called together this storm almost every night.
I awake in another place.
A familiar voice with a stranger's face speaks more unheard words.
What new friends will the day bring?
One for one thousand acquainted.
What new home will the night bring?
When it all comes down you just throw the bones.
On the way I saw five hours of sleep but your fire makes it all worth while.
On the way I wrote words for you to keep.
On the way, I saw myself.
Lost myself along the way.

 

[fox69]

"A Deep Slow Panic"

"A Deep Slow Panic"


I watched you go out the door
With poise I'd not seen before
I saw you shine, you shine
I collapsed to the floor
It promised it'd miss me more and said,
"True love is mine.
I missed you.
Did you miss me?"

Slowly, it's consuming me
Deliberate and deep
I can't take this deeper panic
Teach me, teach me not to dream
Dream deeply

I haven't left here for days
My panic keeps me awake as he unwinds inside
He told me I should have known
That he hated the way I'd grown to love soft lies
She lied
"Do you miss her?
Like I miss you?"

Slowly, it's consuming me
Deliberate and deep
I can't take this deeper panic
Teach me, teach me not to dream
Dream deeply

[Instrumental]

Slowly, it's consuming me
Deliberate and deep
I can't take this deeper panic
Teach me, teach me not to dream
Dream deeply

Slowly, I'll swallow your fears
For all of those years
How could you let them consume me?
Teach me, teach me how you sleep
So sweetly

Slowly, it's consuming me
Deliberate and deep
I can't take this deeper panic
Teach me, teach me how you sleep
So sweetly

 

[fox69]

"A Single Second"

"A Single Second"



Oh my God! My God this can't be happening!
God tell me, tell me this isn't real!
I can't believe all that I have
foreseen is finally happening.
I cannot for a single second stand the way I feel.
I always knew. I always saw it coming.
Enveloped now, encased by my worst fear.
I've never felt the nausea of longing to feel nothing,
I never wanted to cease to
exist, just disappear. Fear memories are all that lie ahead.
Never have I felt so lost. Memories dull my senses.
Fear tragedy is all that lies ahead.
Never have I felt so dead.
Once felt so warm, now I'm fucking freezing.
I am the once embraced abandoned one.
I raised my eyes up to the light in hopes of finding healing;
no relief was mine, I was burnt, by the sun.

 

[fox69]

"A Winter's Tale"

"A Winter's Tale"



A chilling silence.
A world of violets.
My breath materialized again.
Immaculate.
Inanimate.
A comfort cutting time I see... a string of white lights.
Forever walking through December.
Forever longing for a sign of life, a bringer of light.
Forever wandering together through a world of violets.
Ice everlasting.
A full moon casting a purple veil enshrouding all.
I perambulate, somnambulant.
A solace piercing time I see... a string of white lights.
If only one for night, if only for one night, if only for one night remember.
If only for one night, if only for one night, if only for one night together.